I hear people say all the time how hard it is to be an austim parent. I guess it is to a point but I thoroughly enjoy my ASD son and some days are harder than others but most of my days have been fairly simple. Then I get to thinking, maybe I was cut out for this, maybe my son was meant for me for a reason, maybe some parents can not handle having a child with special needs.
My ex husband (Logans Dad) I think has a hard time with it more than I do. Even though he only sees him one weekend out of every two or three months. He tells me how he can not even take him to a restaurant or certain stores because he has fits. I myself don't see this. We have no trouble out of Logan going out to most public places. When we do attend a restaurant we request sitting in the back and try to be away from the crowd because Logan has a tendency to throw things. When he is happy he screams and flaps his arms. This to me is acceptable. More than an unhappy child. His father can not even handle this. He says its rude and will disturb other people. I have caught myself apologizing to other people when he does this just because of how Logans father would be. I have never gotten someone being upset about it. Usually people tell me its just fine. Its music to their ears to hear a happy baby. And Logan is happy most of the time. Or at least with me. When I was with his father he would get embarrassed about Logans loud noises. It really hurt me and caused problems in our marriage with the way he was with Logan or about Logans behavior.
Now my Eric (my fiance) is so caring when it comes to Logan. He knows how to handle it. He loves hearing Logans screams of happiness and could care less if he does this in public. He is happy that he is happy!
Logan and I are both so lucky to have him in our life!
