Not Your Typical Easter

Oh I have once again stumbled off the beaten path of blogging. But that is okay. I am here again and hopefully will continue to follow. 

Easter was yesterday and I hope all of you enjoyed the day with your family. For us it is not the traditional Easters that I remember. We were never really into going to church and honestly I still dont. (Even though I am seriously thinking about it)

But we would always dye eggs, hide them, hunt them and have an Easter lunch. My parents never said what Easter was about or anything. I found out later as an adult. 

Easter this year was a disaster. We decided to take Logan out to an Easter Egg hunt that a local church had set up at the city park. Logan was already feeling kind of rough but I wanted him to be able to pick up eggs since we decided we were not doing it at home. I should have put Logan in the younger age group. He was slow and never stood a chance. Unlike most of the other parents there, we wanted Logan to be able to do it himself and have fun. We look around and parents are gathering eggs and throwing them in their kids baskets. It was a horrible display of greed I have ever seen. Not only that but other parents were fighting. A brawl just about broke out and I heard the grandmother telling the adults it was not a place for that. It continued out in the parking lot. We just scooped up Logan and got out of there. We see kids leaving and parents carrying baskets overflowing with eggs. It was sad. It was very sad. So Eric and I have decided our goal for next year we will set up an Easter egg hunt for Special Needs Children. Then those kids will be given a chance. 

As you can see he did not end up with much and most of that he can not even have due to allergies. 

Then on our actual Sunday and settling down a bit after a the horrible display of people on Saturday Logan spent the morning in therapy. 

After about 2 hours Logan started feeling really bad and ended up with a fever and the therapist had to leave early. I kept him home from school today and this is what he started his morning off with

This Easter is one to not exactly remember but to help up make a better one next year for my sweet little boy. 

Some People Are Not Cut Out For This and Some Are

I hear people say all the time how hard it is to be an austim parent. I guess it is to a point but I thoroughly enjoy my ASD son and some days are harder than others but most of my days have been fairly simple. Then I get to thinking, maybe I was cut out for this, maybe my son was meant for me for a reason, maybe some parents can not handle having a child with special needs. 

My ex husband (Logans Dad) I think has a hard time with it more than I do. Even though he only sees him one weekend out of every two or three months. He tells me how he can not even take him to a restaurant or certain stores because he has fits. I myself don't see this. We have no trouble out of Logan going out to most public places. When we do attend a restaurant we request sitting in the back and try to be away from the crowd because Logan has a tendency to throw things. When he is happy he screams and flaps his arms. This to me is acceptable. More than an unhappy child. His father can not even handle this. He says its rude and will disturb other people. I have caught myself apologizing to other people when he does this just because of how Logans father would be. I have never gotten someone being upset about it. Usually people tell me its just fine. Its music to their ears to hear a happy baby. And Logan is happy most of the time. Or at least with me. When I was with his father he would get embarrassed about Logans loud noises. It really hurt me and caused problems in our marriage with the way he was with Logan or about Logans behavior. 

Now my Eric (my fiance) is so caring when it comes to Logan. He knows how to handle it. He loves hearing Logans screams of happiness and could care less if he does this in public. He is happy that he is happy! 

Logan and I are both so lucky to have him in our life!